Tears and stillness · 07/11/2011 05:34 pm by Bron
I’m reminded of how far from home I am. Separated from home- my family.
Dad writes me an email Sunday. Nana’s in hospital and won’t be going home. She won’t see Christmas, maybe not even two weeks. I look at flights, I haven’t spoken to anyone yet. And then a few hours later, another email says she’s gone.
I feel so removed. I’m crying, but it comes in bursts of tears and stillness. I call dad, he asks how everything is over here, as only he would. I don’t say anything more than ok, so he gives in and says, look we’re just on the road at the moment, I’ll call you tomorrow.
I think it’s abrupt, and for a minute I feel cut out. But it passes as I realise this is dad’s grief, and I need to wait.
I am not going home. A decision that I both hate, and needed to make.
